This is the start of M-‘s fourth week in his own apartment an hour away in the city.\u00a0\u00a0 Yesterday evening, I got email from him saying he had mail from the city, and was supposed to take something to the city offices and have a stamp, but he didn’t know where the city offices were and did not have a stamp in the apartment.\u00a0\u00a0 He had sent the email in the afternoon; I checked email after supper.\u00a0 I phoned to ask him what the mail had been, and was prepared to guide him through whatever it was or deal with it on my Wednesday trip to to the city.\u00a0\u00a0 It took awhile to get clear what the mail had been about (note to self–still need more work on comprehension of questions and providing direct answers), but then came the marvel…a milestone indeed.<\/p>\n
It turned out that between the initial email to me, and the later phone call, he had figured out that a) the mail was a utility bill from the city, and b) he had bought a stamp at a nearby convenience store, after asking at the apartment complex office where he could buy stamps.\u00a0 And c) he had already written the check and mailed it back.<\/p>\n
He had solved a problem on his own<\/em>, using available assistance which he <\/em>figured out how to contact, without a parent stepping in to suggest or guide.\u00a0\u00a0 And what is almost as important, he knew<\/em> he had done something new that was good, he knew<\/em> he had solved his own problem, and he was proud of himself.\u00a0 He felt his own competence.\u00a0\u00a0 This also is new…although he’s gained in competence every year, he hasn’t shown real confidence in it, ownership of it.<\/p>\n If you have an autistic kid…you know how golden that is and I got blurry-eyed then and every time since I’ve thought about it.<\/p>\n Another thing:\u00a0 we had driven him to the nearest supermarket to the apartment (something over a mile away) several times, and I had mentioned what might be a safe way to walk there, but he’s sensitive to heat and it’s been hot–so I didn’t think he’d do it anytime soon.\u00a0\u00a0 But Sunday, after church, he told R- he’d walked to the store, described his route there and back, and commented that it was good exercise.\u00a0\u00a0 And last week, though I waited in the city to see if he needed help getting back to the apartment from skating, he called from each bus as he caught it to tell me he was on the bus and fine.<\/p>\n So…does this mean he was ready for this move three years ago when he finished spec-ed high school?\u00a0 No.\u00a0 He was still scared of the idea then, and when he’s scared he freezes.\u00a0\u00a0 He hadn’t lived anywhere but our house yet.\u00a0\u00a0 The intervening three years got him to the point many high school seniors reach at 17 and 18, when getting out of their parents’\u00a0 house (at least) and the town (if it’s not big enough) is a high priority…and ahead of many of them because we had the chance to have him out of this house and doing some of the things he’d need to do in his own apartment.\u00a0 (This is why we hadn’t ever sold my mother’s house…) The trick has always been finding the moment when the underlying competencies have been gained, when he’s just a little frustrated with the status quo, and then showing him the open gate.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Sometimes with a little push (that first time at an autism camp) but as he grew, it was more just opening the gate and letting him find that the barrier was missing.<\/p>\n And if he’s really caught on that he can appreciate his own increasing competence as well as solve some of life’s typical problems, then he’s on the edge of being much more self-motivated and goal-oriented.<\/p>\n For those of you in the maelstrom of early childhood with a kid on the spectrum, those struggling every day with everything from meltdowns to toileting to eating problems to family members who are about as supportive as a wet noodle (only they sting) and friends who are sure you could have a “normal” kid if only you did what they tell you….the little bitty gains do eventually add up.\u00a0 There is<\/em> a light at the end of the tunnel.\u00a0\u00a0 It’s a miserably LONG tunnel, no denying that, but it’s not forever…as we’re finding out now (and three years ago I was thinking it was likely to be a dead heat between our aging bodies and his creeping progress towards independence.)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" This is the start of M-‘s fourth week in his own apartment an hour away in the city.\u00a0\u00a0 Yesterday evening, I got email from him saying he had mail from the city, and was supposed to take something to the city offices and have a stamp, but he didn’t know where the city offices were 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